Shaking My Head

How can a place be run so badly and make me not want to go back so much yet still I can't find the drive to look for something else?

Mentalities

I think I have two rather different ones.

This thought struck me today whilst I was out walking before work.

When ever it comes to situations which require someone to take responsability or take charge I become very child like and wait for somebody else to do it and then immediately fall in behind them following instructions.

When ever I see somebody nearby acting childish or fooling around my immediate thought is usually "Oh, grow up will you." Then followed by the realisation that they are probably just having a bit of fun and since it isn't harming anyone why should I care anyway?

No real reason to this post. I just wanted to get that thought out of my head.

Thoughts on Work

I've been at my new job for 4 weeks now. It is in no way going to become a career for me. That I know for certain. It's not what I want to do.
With how I'm feeling currently it may not last for much longer at all. I know it's early days but I feel that for every small thing I get right I get something wrong five times as large.
Today I was acosted by the manager for first of all being too slow with the task I was doing and then for having done the wrong task in the first place.
Last week I was told off for not knowing where enough of our products were for the customers. I've been making efforts to get better but it just doesn't seem worth it.
I really didn't think things would hit me this hard but I just don't seem to be able to cope with it. I think maybe I'm still too naive, even at the age of 22.
I don't dislike the work, I just hate the way the manager lets you know something is wrong. He makes me feel like I can do nothing right which just makes me doubt myself more and thus begins the downward spiral of misery.
I have three days off now and I know I will be feeling better by the time I go back to work on Wednesday but I also know that it's only a matter of time before I make another stupid cockup.
See? Already doubting myself again.

First Payslip

I got my first payslip from The Co-operative today! Sweet, sweet money!

First Shift

I've had my first shift at The Co-operative now. It was a six (6) hour shift and went a lot quicker than I expected. I suppose because I was kept busy I didn't have time to get bored. I started at 10:30am and finished at 5:00pm just in time to catch my bus home.

I didn't get too cold but I was wearing a vest! It was one of my dad's. I haven't worn a vest since I was about six years old. You could see it through my shirt as well. Nobody said anything though.

I was kept busy 'facing' the shelves, checking stock 'sell by' dates and reducing the prices of anything that needed to be reduced.

My next shift is Friday.

The World of Work

I shall be entering it soon.

Today I completed my induction for The Co-operative Group and I officially have my first shift on Wednesday. Apparently I will be getting trained up in the chillers section. I hope it's not too cold.

Thankfully it's not an early start so thats a plus.