Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts
Monday, May 25, 2015
Shaking My Head
How can a place be run so badly and make me not want to go back so much yet still I can't find the drive to look for something else?
Friday, July 29, 2011
Makeover Shows
I think I'd like to go on one of those makeover shows. I'd be curious to see what could be done and how different I might look.
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Mentalities
I think I have two rather different ones.
This thought struck me today whilst I was out walking before work.
When ever it comes to situations which require someone to take responsability or take charge I become very child like and wait for somebody else to do it and then immediately fall in behind them following instructions.
When ever I see somebody nearby acting childish or fooling around my immediate thought is usually "Oh, grow up will you." Then followed by the realisation that they are probably just having a bit of fun and since it isn't harming anyone why should I care anyway?
No real reason to this post. I just wanted to get that thought out of my head.
This thought struck me today whilst I was out walking before work.
When ever it comes to situations which require someone to take responsability or take charge I become very child like and wait for somebody else to do it and then immediately fall in behind them following instructions.
When ever I see somebody nearby acting childish or fooling around my immediate thought is usually "Oh, grow up will you." Then followed by the realisation that they are probably just having a bit of fun and since it isn't harming anyone why should I care anyway?
No real reason to this post. I just wanted to get that thought out of my head.
Friday, October 22, 2010
Time...
You know how you can have too much time on your hands? Well I think I have too much time on my mind.
All I seem to think about lately is how I wish I could change the way I look. Nothing major but still, not really things I should be thinking about. Especially when all it does its make me miserable.
If money was no issue and I didn't care what others would think of me going ahead with it, I would have laser eye suregry, laser hair removal on my partial monobrow, and a hair transplant to refill my hairline.
My hair is the one thing that bothers me the most. I'm 23 and feel I have the hairline of a 50 year old. When asked, people say there is nothing wrong with my hair but being told something and then getting your mind to accept it are two seperate things.
I doubt I will act on any of these thoughts which only makes things worse though as the ideas and thoughts build up in my head without an outlet.
Hopefully once I've learnt to drive I will be able to get out and about which should distract me from these annoying but persistant thoughts.
All I seem to think about lately is how I wish I could change the way I look. Nothing major but still, not really things I should be thinking about. Especially when all it does its make me miserable.
If money was no issue and I didn't care what others would think of me going ahead with it, I would have laser eye suregry, laser hair removal on my partial monobrow, and a hair transplant to refill my hairline.
My hair is the one thing that bothers me the most. I'm 23 and feel I have the hairline of a 50 year old. When asked, people say there is nothing wrong with my hair but being told something and then getting your mind to accept it are two seperate things.
I doubt I will act on any of these thoughts which only makes things worse though as the ideas and thoughts build up in my head without an outlet.
Hopefully once I've learnt to drive I will be able to get out and about which should distract me from these annoying but persistant thoughts.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Thoughts on Work
I've been at my new job for 4 weeks now. It is in no way going to become a career for me. That I know for certain. It's not what I want to do.
With how I'm feeling currently it may not last for much longer at all. I know it's early days but I feel that for every small thing I get right I get something wrong five times as large.
Today I was acosted by the manager for first of all being too slow with the task I was doing and then for having done the wrong task in the first place.
Last week I was told off for not knowing where enough of our products were for the customers. I've been making efforts to get better but it just doesn't seem worth it.
I really didn't think things would hit me this hard but I just don't seem to be able to cope with it. I think maybe I'm still too naive, even at the age of 22.
I don't dislike the work, I just hate the way the manager lets you know something is wrong. He makes me feel like I can do nothing right which just makes me doubt myself more and thus begins the downward spiral of misery.
I have three days off now and I know I will be feeling better by the time I go back to work on Wednesday but I also know that it's only a matter of time before I make another stupid cockup.
See? Already doubting myself again.
With how I'm feeling currently it may not last for much longer at all. I know it's early days but I feel that for every small thing I get right I get something wrong five times as large.
Today I was acosted by the manager for first of all being too slow with the task I was doing and then for having done the wrong task in the first place.
Last week I was told off for not knowing where enough of our products were for the customers. I've been making efforts to get better but it just doesn't seem worth it.
I really didn't think things would hit me this hard but I just don't seem to be able to cope with it. I think maybe I'm still too naive, even at the age of 22.
I don't dislike the work, I just hate the way the manager lets you know something is wrong. He makes me feel like I can do nothing right which just makes me doubt myself more and thus begins the downward spiral of misery.
I have three days off now and I know I will be feeling better by the time I go back to work on Wednesday but I also know that it's only a matter of time before I make another stupid cockup.
See? Already doubting myself again.
